I wrote Orange Blossoms shortly after graduating from The Caretaker, and in some ways it feels like the next chapter in this story. In the fall of 2019, I was taking care of someone near me who was struggling with addiction, and as a janitor often does, I internalized this immense pain and adopted it as my own. It is crippling to feel so powerless trying to help someone you love. The song came out like an incantation, a desperate plea to be saved from wrestling with it all. But it became more determined as I focused back on the task of taking responsibility for myself and my own life. The song touches on a sentence that kept coming back to me at the time: “Nobody will do it for you.” You can help and be helped, you can love and be loved, but salvation is your own to seek and claim.
